My master and I have become so much closer as a result of my complete submission to him. A major component I feel is the strong trust in our relationship. I know that most people don’t and can’t ever really have a relationship like ours, because I have known him since I was four years old and he was ten.
Recently, we took a nice trip and went to the coast for a few days and because of children from previous relationships this is the first trip we had time alone together with no children. It was about us and there were spankings during the trip, but there was no belt there was the ocean, us and things we liked to do. It was wonderful, but then it was time to go home and I disobeyed. I lied about it and I got probably the hardest belting ever, but I was actually glad that I finally told him. I felt better telling him and I felt better after I was spanked. I made him so angry that he hit me so hard the paddle broke in half and now, because of that, I will get the belt or his hand from now on.
I know that it sounds crazy but our relationship is so much better and we have grown so much closer. We could fight for up to two weeks not talking, or yelling at each other and now it doesn’t last long and he is very patient with me. I ache for him like I have ached for no other man. I have loved him above all other men, even my ex husband. I like submitting to him, I like belonging to him. I knew even when I was little that I belonged to him. In my twenties I met this man who loved me, but in my heart of hearts I loved my master and my whole life I compared everyone to him partly the real him and partly the illusion of his greatness that I built up in my mind about him since I was a young girl. When, I was little he showered me with attention and took me everywhere with him until he was about 13 and he met girls. He has always been so gorgeous and handsome and I was very jealous of his girlfriends, but I knew that one day he would be mine again. I knew since I was little I was meant to be with him. Anyway, this man loved me and my parents loved him and then one day I went to a funeral and the man who loved me watched as I interacted with the man I loved since childhood and he knew just by the way I looked at my master. He said, “Oh My God, you still love him I can see it on your face.” I was engaged to that man, and a few weeks later I broke the engagement and I still would not see my master until 12 years later and from that day we have only been apart for 3 days when I visited a cousin out of state.
I have a smart mouth and he likes to punish me for that. He ball gags me, ties my hands behind my back and spanks me hard with the belt. I like the loss of power, I like knowing that if I do something I shouldn’t eat fast food or skip the gym he will hold me accountable and spank me. I feel protected and cherished and I willingly accept the consequences and I kneel and submit to my master. He puts the ball gag on me and reminds me of what I am being punished for and spanks me. Then, he holds me while I cry and then when I am ok. I show him my devotion by sucking his cock slowly and he sometimes spanks me hard and gives me instructions like take it to the back of your throat he likes to be deepthroated like that. I belong to him period and fully understand that now and I feel so good in his arms and I know we will be together forever.
dee's submission-domestic discipline 