I got the belt tonight

Yes, I got the belt tonight we always fight because I don’t put up with shit and he thinks I have a smart mouth.  I called him a liar.  So, I should interject that I know him better than any other woman he has ever been with.  I have known him since I was very little in fact, I would say all my views on men were based on him.

When we were kids he was often stuck in charge of me and I adored him and followed him around.  I watched him and I was there often when he lied to his mom or dad, so I know all his tells.  He was very good to me and took me everywhere and showered me with attention and gifts until he turned about 13 and girls came into the picture.

He would not spend any time with me anymore because I was not a teenage girl.  Oh, how I cried but we still had this strong connection that could never break.  Like 40 years later we are together now for almost 10 years longer than either of us has been with anyone.  I don’t even remember what he lied about, but I knew he lied to me and he lied to me a couple of times and it just worries me and we were yelling at each other last night and I guess I made him really pissed off and I thought I was going to get the belt last night.  Instead I got 5 lashes.  He called that an easy one, but it wasn’t.  He said he gave me a light one because I did all my chores and was obedient.  He told me to take off my panties and put the pink and blue ball-gag in my mouth and he has me lay on the bed while he spanks me with the leather belt.  While he spanks me with the belt he usually reminds me what I did wrong and what he expects in the future.  Then, he takes the ball gag out and I lay on his chest and cry.  He holds and comforts me and then, I stroke him through his pants until he is hard and I pull him out and suck him very slow deep-throated him hard until I gag.  We lay in the 69 position because he is not done spanking me.

After, we finish we get the journal and he writes his expectations for this week and new punishment of 10 because he thought he was being too light this week .  The intensity of the feelings between us makes it exciting, scary, and passionate fun.  I like submitting to him pleasing him and serving him, but because of his intense feelings for me I think that he holds back during the punishment at times, but I think it’s better when he is angry because he doesn’t hold back and I remember to follow the rules.

Boring day

I have been studying, doing laundry and cooking all day. Honey decided on roast, so I made homemade coleslaw and roasted Yukon gold and red potatoes drizzled with olive oil, green onion and a three cheese blend sprinkled on top (cooked on the side).  We eat very healthy and since my body belongs to him he expects it to be fit and toned.  I have a gym routine and membership so if I don’t go and continually improve my body to his expectation, I will have a punishment spanking.   I don’t want to give you the impression his is this brutal guy, because he isn’t.

He only expects 3 gym days a week and eating 1500 calories a day.  This is totally safe and appropriate (for my weight and we have input by a doctor).  You can basically eat unlimited vegetables like cucumbers, lettuce, zucchini as long as they are steamed, or boiled (you lose nutrients here in the water).  Lettuce cucumber tomato salad is good if you use cilantro and onion and chop the tomato you don’t really need salad dressing it is really good without it and has a very refreshing taste with the cilantro.

I am waiting for the potatoes to be done so I can go to the gym and work out.  My life is about waiting.  Waiting for the clothes to dry, waiting for the work week to end.  He has been really good I did something a few weeks ago.  I had pizza at little c’s the lunch special, but I wasn’t suppose to have it.  Wow, was I shocked when I did not get the spanking of a life time.  Like, when I think it was Big Mac that I ate. Every time we have a long weekend were just together too much and we end up fighting, so wish me luck.  I have a lot to do before Sunday and if the things on my list aren’t done I have a punishment spanking coming.

 

 

 

 

A New Approach

We have been busy with life and looking for a new approach because our life keeps changing we keep changing and our relationship keeps evolving. We have acquired some new toys and I love pink we bought some pink and fuzzy restraints, a collar, a leash, pink ball gag, whip, and pink rope.  I like pink I like to be soft and sweet for him.

Our new approach to correcting my behavior is a weekly meeting and journal.  This involves a meeting once a week after my weekend spanking.  I get my maintenance spanking on Friday, so if it is bad I have a few days to recover.  I got a pretty bad spanking a little while ago it hurt so bad I could barely sit for several days just sitting down hurt so bad my butt was burning so bad and it was so hard to work like that.

During the meeting we discuss what behavior needs to be corrected.  What his expectations are for the weekend and what chores I need to do.  If I choose not to obey the consequences are listed in  my journal.  Now, I get spanked wearing restraints because I was trying to cover my butt during the spanking.  I have my hands tied behind my back and my feet in restraints.  I got spanked tonight with the pink flogger it hurt, but it was not too bad.  Afterward, I usually give him a very long blow job.  I repeatedly suck him slowly deepthroating him.  He pushes his cock all the way down my throat until he gags me and pulls it slowly out of my mouth over and over and I gently and slowly slide my mouth all the way down his shaft while looking into his eyes.  My job is to make him as comfortable as possible and satisfy him.  He decides if I am allowed to have his cock inside me.  Tonight after sucking his cock for a while we finally had sex.  I want his cock all the time it feels so good, but I will faithfully submit and swallow his cum if I am told to.    I fully submit to him I like pleasing him and obeying him. It feels so natural for him to dominate me.